SEEKING ADVICE

My black spiritual fam & #BLACKTWITTER in General,

Did I do the right thing?

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Neighbors moved out a few weeks back (not one of us) left their trash on the curb. I resisted doing anything because I wanted to see if the problem would rectify itself or if anyone would step up. If not, I was prepared to call waste to take care of it, but it stayed weighed on me because I wondered what the neighbors thought of me as a black man?

Now, keep in mind, I’m trying not to take on anyone else’s shit right now. Yet, I felt that I should have gotten it done before now and that is bringing on added stress, and I feel like somehow I’m going to get blamed for this, but how could I get blamed for this, (You know you gonna get blamed for this)? tropical depression let alone that it was coming up the gulf. Then I was like, Shit! All that crap is out there! WTF!

Now, keep in mind, I’m trying not to take on anyone else’s shit right now. Yet, I felt that I should have gotten it done before now and that is bringing on added stress, and I feel like somehow I’m going to get blamed for this, but how could I get blamed for this, (You know you gonna get blamed for this)?

Making a decision to let it go. Earlier, I asked why is this happening to me. Then I thought there is a lesson here. There is. Then that came to me that I should release but…MAN! Is that hard? Did I make the right decision?

Am I making the right decision? I mean, I can go out there and start moving it around but its just me. A black man out moving furniture by himself? Even though these neighbors know they’ve seen me, they would deny knowing me and not a nan would come out and help even knowing a storm is approaching.