Good Days and Worse Days

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Overall things weren't bad, but got home and still dealing with the air situation. I really don't want to do anything. No writing, nothing. I just want to slink down and fade away. It's stupid to feel that way! I mean in the grand scheme of things it is minor, yet it is acting as a wedge to let all the bad thoughts (failure, stupidity, etc) come slinking in and I'm too tired and low on energy to stop it.

I think it's a sleeping pill kind of night tonight! rap my head around figuring it out and getting it to how I want it. Usually, Wix is so easy to figure out, but not tonight. At some point, I'm going to have to go back and rework the whole thing, but I gave up and decided to just write something and put it up. I'm sure by the time this goes live it will look nothing like it looked when I initially published it under the cover of invisibility (at least that is what I'm calling it).

I need to figure this all out and how to make heads or tales of my life. I know you are supposed to let things flow but I don't have the energy to do it. Nothing seems to stick and I can't find that thought or way of thinking that will make things work and make things stick.

I'm sick and tired of the good days followed by the bad ones. I just want things to be consistent and consistently positive for a change. I know I need to plant the seed and wait but geez!

I was going to adjust the webpage some but can't wrap my head around figuring it out and getting it to how I want it. Usually, Wix is so easy to figure out, but not tonight. At some point I'm going to have to go back and rework the whole thing, but I gave up and decided to just write something and put it up. I'm sure by the time this goes live it will look nothing like it looked when I initally published it under the cover of invisbility (at least that is what I'm calling it).

- Invisible Man

10/23/2020